October 15th is Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day. It is a somewhat silent day, reminds me of the loss of a pregnancy. It isn't spoke about or understood like any other death. It is also a very lonely road for a woman to travel. Why it may be a sad time for the father and other family members, the mental impact that it has on the mother is beyond devastating.
I have mentioned before my losses and the impact they had on me was something that I felt I would never get over. I felt like my world was ending. No one around me knew what to say or how to approach the issue with me. Deep down I didn't want them to. I resented people who were getting pregnant. If the miscarriages hadn't happened while I was working on my Masters Degree, I think i would have went insane. Lucky for me I was in the middle of a counseling program and found many outlets to channel my grief and pain. I even had the opportunity to share my journey with two other members of our cohort to help when they too experienced miscarriages. Lucky for me too that I ended up having a successful pregnancy and of course sweet Emma is the joy of my life. I know there are people who don't have happy endings and I never take my gift of being a mom for granted!
Such a hard thing from women to go through. Thinking of you!
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